Yay, changed my blogskin :D I was getting sick of the previous one :X Apparently, I get over the skins I choose very easily. No time to edit blog today, leave it till friday night ): So...today sucked? Kept seeing him during lunch. I want to see him. But its not like I'll say anything to him... So I just hang around the corridor and avoid looking at his direction, just paying attention to my friends. Pathetic much? -.- The day didn't suck cause of that. It just sucked cause I'm a total coward. I wanna thank Kim for recommending the chilli and rice to me :D

aileen.

Monday was monday.
Passed by very fast...
It was quite boring today :X

Saw something which totally freaked me out today.
His pm...
As soon as I saw that, I just started freaking out.
Gosh, who is that lucky person??!
I envy that person la.
Ya I know, I tend to be negative cause I don't want to expect so much and then just be disappointed in the end.

1. He could be saying that to a guy :X

Though not really possible... cause guys normally don't say that to each other.

2. He could be saying that to another girl ! D:

I think it may be possible cause there might be a girl he knows who was so nice and so outgoing etc etc...

3. For fun.

Who knows?

-.-

ok nvm, you know what? I decided that I'll tell this friday...
If I got rejected, then I have the weekend to mourn over it. Eat like crazy. Then monday just avoid. -.- Ya I'm an expertise in avoiding you know.


aileen.

Bored, so do quiz :D

1] Two names you go by?
Aileen, Alien :D

2] Four things you are wearing right now?
Long sleeve pullover, Another pullover, pants and underwear.

3] Are u in a relationship?
Nope...

4] Have you ever been given a rose?
Yeah haha I just got my first one from Kimberly ^^

5] Have you ever licked a photo ?
eww no.

6] Have you ever dated someone twice?
I don't go on dates.

7] Do you believe that every one has a soul- mate?
Yup (:

8] What's your current problem?
One regarding him...Second one is with my parents, I just can't seem to control my anger and third all those freaking task we get! ><

9] Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yeah...):

10] Do you throw around the word love?
I don't throw, when I say it I mean it.

11] Are you a loser ?
Don't think so :X

12] How many kids do you want to have?
Four maybe x)

13] What is/are your favorite color/s?
Purple, pink, turqoise

15] Have you ever found it hard to tell anyone you love them?
Yeah...

16] Imagine you're 40 & your spouse just died would you get re-married?
If I do meet someone who really loves and cares for me, I'll think about it.

17] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
umm...4? :X

18] What song do you want played at your wedding?
Umm...I need you x)


19] Do you love anyone?
Yeah..

20] Have you made out with some one you like on your top?
No :X

21] Have you ever written a love song/ poem?
Its kinda like a poem I think.

23) Are you a shy person?
Yeah D:

24) Did you have a good day today?
No -.- Got lectured just almost an hour after I woke up -.-

25) Do you like anyone?
Yes..but the feeling is so much, its love. Yeah I know, I'm crazy.

26) What are you thinking about?
Thinking about how I'm gonna tell him.

27) If you could change something about you or anything what would it be?
I wanna be more outgoing, more courageous, more hard working.

28] Would you ever go back to any of your past relationships?
Yup definitely.

29) Who's the closest person to you?
Regina&Ruben and all my close friends :x

30) how long have you know that person?
Regina&Ruben :D Since I was born :DDD and since he was born :DDD
Close friends- Some almost 4 years, some almost 2years :D

I'm rushing to watch tv now :D So this will be fast :X
Last night, I changed my blogskin :D I'm sure Kim will be quite happy with it (: Its not emo! :D Chatted with Kim last night. Somehow, talking about the past makes me really happy you know (: Told her about things which happened between us last year...It was really fun (: I mean it x) But when I think about it on my own before I go to sleep, I cry instead...-.- I wish that things like that would happen again... I want it to be the present too, not just the past...

I made a deal with Kim. At least like that I'll make sure I WILL TELL. So if I dont' tell by midnight of 16 march, I will owe Kim and DH 10 yuan each T.T I HAVE TO TELL!!! :X omgomg, thinking about it freaks me out T.T Nvm, jia you :D !!!!!!!!

aileen (:

I'm back to posting~
It hasn't been a good week for me.
And Saturday is Valentine's Day.
The day which I'll be the most lonely, probably just staying at home doing homework and then going out with my family.
I don't wanna let that happen.
It Sucks.

Yesterday....
Went to bed quite early.
I didn't have any homework, and I started reading.
Which of course, let my thoughts wonder which then led to self depression.
I couldn't take it so I had to rest my head on the table.
Oh,
I'm sick ):
It doesn't really suck cause it fits me perfectly.
Now I'm both physically and mentally ill.
My throat started becoming sore at lunch and I started sneezing too ><
This morning, I was hoping that I could get fever and just stay at the clinic all day.
Well, I wasn't 'lucky' enough.
hai...my voice has kinda changed.
I couldn't read the words properly during tuition; many words were read wrongly :X
Oh well...
Back to yesterday's early night...
Went to bed at about 9.20, but I didn't fall asleep till like almost 10 I guess...
I kept thinking and thinking and thinking, till I fell asleep.
You know what?
I really miss you.
Saying this is also no use, you wouldn't know.
Even if you knew, will you care?

My insides are hurting all over...
And its not just cause of him.
The fact that
1. I can't tell him that I love him.
2. I'm going back to S'pore for good.
3. My grades and school. ( I always do my best, just that its always not enough for my parents...)
4. What will happen when I get back there.
5. I don't have the courage to even say Hi to him...
6. I'm scared of the future.

All these things... I nearly cried just now. Tears were already there...But I couldn't cry. I don't wanna hear the lecture I'll get. I'm slowly breaking down...

I'm going crazy :X
Okaay...
o0...10.10pm :D
lol Double Digit.
So today, school kinda sucked.
Sigh...there weren't any 'HI' between us.
Are we gonna continue being like this? ...
I hope not...
Talk about happy things now. :X
But my mind just keeps leading me to sad stuff T.T
Oh ya, JI WON IS COMING TO VISIT :DDD
Hopefully Sally can come too (:
I miss her D:
On 25th march :D Teresita's birthay xD
I can't wait :D
But hopefully she can join our classes or smt, or else she'll be bored D:
Yay! No school this friday (:
I'm actually happy lol
Dunno why.
No need to study that day I guess.
Gonna go for hair treatment thing to maintain the straightness of my hair xD
Mum ask me to go, or else money wasted.
Then probably just gonna walk around there.
Go NIKE shop.
:DD!!
I WANT MY BAG ^0^
My mum say she'll buy for me xP
hehe, happy (x
Okay...other happy things?
umm...BIRTHDAY COMING IN 38 DAYS :DDDD
I so happy :D
Gonna be 14 :X
Oh well, one year older again x:
This Saturday is Valentine's Day.
It'll be a lonely day for me :X
But I will write my friends a love letter :DDD
And try to fold hearts for them (:
LES :o!
Who cares? xD
I love you guys alot! :DD






aileen (:
















Somebody...make me laugh or smile or do something to distract him out of my mind...Please?

But I know that...no one will give me the laughter or the smile I have when he is the one who makes me happy...


I still love him.

Sigh....
I feel very down now...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Another quiz from Shirley :D I'm bored -.- You guys might not want to read it cause its boring.


Typical Basics

What is your name?: Aileen Lim May Ling.

How old are you?: I'll be 14 in 41 days.

Married, single, taken?: Single.

Do you have any kids?: In the future, I want 4 (:!

If so, how many?: .

Pets?: Dog, Riskie :D



School

Middle school?: SSIS.

High school?: A JC in s'pore.

Did you like school?: Yup.

Are you in college? Where?: Not yet, But I wanna go NUS.

If so, what are you majoring in?: Don't know yet :D


Friends

Who is your best friend?: Alot of people xD

Do you have more close friends or acquaintances?: Close friends.

Do you have online friends you've never met?: I don't really like having online friends unless they're friends of my friends.

Do you have more online friends or "real" friends?: Real Friends (:

What do you like to do with your friends?: Talk, play, watch movies, eat :D



Animals/Pets

What is your favourite "pet" animal?: Doggie =P

What's your favourite wild animal?: umm...tiger.

How many pets would you have if you could take care of them?: one.

What would they be?: Dog :D



Fantasy

If you could look like anything, what would it be?: I just try to be happy with how I look like :X

More space for your answer: lol, taller! but not so tall. And slim.

Where would you live if you were this person/thing?: In Shanghai or Singapore.

What would your friends look like/be?: Themselves.

What "magical powers" would you have?: Mind reading, telepathy :D Or the ability to make everyone happy (:

Would you have a sidekick?: haha yup xP

What would they be like?: Funny, nice, gives opinions etc

Work

Where do you work?: School D:

How much are you paid?: Nothing.

Do you like working there?: haha yup xD

What do you do?: Study eat make friends :D

What would you do if you could have any job?: The boss of the company :D

How much would you make?: 50 thousand a month ? :D Sing dollar xP But if I have to be realistic, 10 thousand :D


Clothes/Accessories/Etc etc

What kind of "style" do you have?: casual, girly I think.

Do you have lots of clothes?: According to my mum, Yes. But according to me, NO D:

Why/why not?: I love clothes so I want more.

Do you buy your own clothes, or does someone else?: My mum and I buy my clothes. She's good at choosing :D

Why aren't you buying your own clothes?: Sometimes I have school and can't go out D:

Out of what you own, what's your favourite outfit?: Almost all :D


Cars

Do you own a car? In the future, I want one :D

If not, how do you get around?: Mrt, Bus, Walking, Taxi.

What would be your "ultimate car"?: Volkswagen? xD Or mercdes. But the car must be 4 sitter, and also those kind which you can open the top. -.- I forgot how to say it.

What kind of stereo system would you have on it?: Good one, play loud music xD

What kind of paint job would it have?: Red or black :D Must be shined.



Food

What is your favourite kind of food?: Italian, Singapore,Filipino, Indian, Japanese, Korean, Malay, American etc~! :D

Favourite drink?: Soya Bean Milk xD

Favourite dessert?: Pudding, halo halo, tao suan, ice cream, cake.


Winning the lottery

If you won the lottery, how much would you wish you'd won?: A million.

Would you save it or spend it?: Both :D

Would you quit working or keep working?: Work xD

If you spent it, what would you spend it on?: Island, friends, businesses, houses, cars, charity...


Homes

What do you live in now?: Duplex.

Do you like it there?: Yup :D



Dream House

How many floors would it have?: 4 and basement and attic :D

How many bedrooms?: at least 6.

Hardwood or carpet?: Since it'll be in s'pore, hard wood :D But I like carpet for living room

Porch or no?: :D!! YES.

Big backyard or small?: Big of course.

Big front yard or small?: Big la :D

Fenced in?: yup.

What accessories would you have? swimming pool, gym, basketball court, badminton court, trampoline.

How many bathrooms?: 8?

Big living room?: I love big living rooms :D

Separate dining room, or attached to kitchen?: SEPARATE.

Big windows or small?: Big :D

Bright paint or dark?: Bright :D I don't like dark D:



Piercings and Tattoos

Do you have any piercings?: Yup :D thinking whether I should get another one.

If so, how many?: one on each ear.

Where?: ears.

How many would you like to have?: 4?

Where?: Ears

How many tattoos do you have?: None~

What are they?: If I have one, I would want a flower.

How many would you like to have?: one.

Where?: my back or hips.

What would they look like?: flower :D rose.

What would be your favourite tattoo if you could afford to get it?: A heart.


Television

Do you have cable or satellite?: Yup but it sucks.

Do you watch more TV or movies?: Movies.

What's your favourite TV CHANNEL?: hbo I guess.

What's your favourite SHOW?: Alot :D

Why is it your fav?: Cause its funny and has romance.

What's your favourite MOVIE?: Can't remember but maybe...some s'pore movies and those teen movies. Another Cinderella Story is bad.


Fantasy

Favourite mythical animal?: Dont know.

Why?: can't think of any.

Believe in elves, vampires, werewolves, etc?: Nope.

What would you be? I would rather be none of them.

Would you rather live in a medieval time or a futuristic time?: Futuristic. I think food and technology will be much better.

Wings or no?: None, it'll look weird.

X-Ray vision?: haha xD None no thanks xP



If you were president....

What would be the first law you passed?: Don't know.

Who would be your VP?: Don't know. I'm getting bored...

What would your bodyguards code name you?: A.

Would you be a power hungry ruler or the president we really need?: President we really need :D


Restaurants/Fast Food

Do you prefer sit down restaurants or fast food?: Both :D

Favourite fast food restaurant?: Burger King !!! :D

Favourite sit down restaurant?: Crystal Jade, The Fern Tree, Xin Wang, That Italian restaurant, Boon Tong Kee, Fish and Co. :DDDD

Favourite fast food meal?: Burger and fries! :D

Favourite sit down meal?: Lasagnne, Fish and Chips, Hk food :D actually there's more. :D




The end.
I'm bored.
Math is killing me D:
wa lao eh. ><






aileen :D

I got a quiz from Shirley (:


SCHOOL:
1. Have you ever gotten a D or lower? Nope, thank goodness (:

2. Have you ever gotten detention? No :D

3. Or worse, suspended? Expelled? haha Nope.

4. When will you graduate? From sec school, 2011 :D

5. Have you ever gotten a 100% on a quiz or a test? Yeah, last time -.-

6. What do you like better, reading or math? Reading :D

7. Gym or Music? Gym though I suck at it.

8. Art or Health? Health xD

9. Who do you sit by at lunch? Kimberly, Clarissa, Young Eun, Melody :D

10. What do you usually bring/get at lunch? Whatever they have and sometimes PEANUT BUTTER BREAD :D!!

11. Is your lunch room, big, small, or medium sized? Big?

12. Have you ever sat really close to a guy and never ate any of your food, just staring at him? No lol I'll never do that. Weird~

13. Has your bra ever become unattached during school naturally or by someone? ...

14. Have you ever kissed someone in school?

15. How many late assignments do you have? Either one or none

16. How many times were you late? A few, blame the traffic.

17. Do you go into the school’s bathroom? Yes.

18. During gym, do you sweat a lot? No, I hardly do anything -.-

19. Do you like the gym uniforms they have? okok.

20. Do you even pay attention in school? Most of the time xD But sometimes I just day dream :X

LOVEEEEEE:
1. Who was your first boyfriend? You guys know.

2. How old were you when you got your first boyfriend? 13+

3. Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? Yeah...

4. Do you have a current crush? If that's counted as a crush, then yes.

5. What is your status? single.

6. What song do you think relates to your love life the most? I Need You.

7. Is the person you like now taken? No...

8. If you closed your eyes and pictured him, what would he look like? Smiling or laughing...^^

9. Do you flirt? Don't think so. It comes naturally? :X

10. How many guys do you think you talk to in a day? A few.

11. Do you only hug your boyfriend or other guys? Other guys no. Boyfriend no.

12. How many guys’ numbers do you have? Should be more than 10.

13. So far, how many guys have called you hot, cute, sexy, or pretty? Maybe 2 =.=

14. What would your last initial be if you married the guy you like? Second last letter of the alphabet.

15. Have you ever cried over a guy? Yeah...

16. What happens if your ex shows up at your house and begs you to go back out with him? I'll ask him about the parents problem and solve things from there.

17. What happens if an extremely hot dude asked you out but you didn’t like him and liked someone else? Rejection.

18. Fat or skinny? Skinny. But not bones or twigs kinda skinny :X

19. Blond or brown? Brown, but black hair is better.

20. Tall or short? Taller than me.

FRIENDS
1. Who do you count on to tell all your secrets to? All my close friends (:

2. Do you hug your friends? yup xD

3. What nicknames does your friends call you? Alien =P

4. Who is your number 1? noone :D

I'm quite sleepy now...But I dislike the time where I have to fall asleep. I feel so lonely T.T And my mind start to wander...Then I think of things I don't wanna think about. Sometimes its just hard to forget. Oh nvm, I don't wanna stop thinking about it now.

Woke up at 11.30. Then ate lunch, watched friends :D Started looking for my old science notes which I spent a super long time doing it for last year's exam!!! >< I'll never forget the effort I put into it. I started worrying cause I couldn't find it!! I started clearing the shelve. I found it :D It was in one of the files -.- Refreshed my memory with science particles notes. Did tuition hw. Math algebra problem solving questions are KILLING ME! How do you even do that?! -.- I'm getting very stressed.

At somewhere near ba bai ban...
Bought dvds! :D Cyborg She, Bedtime Stories, Saw 5, Disaster Movie. Went to ba bai ban, and went to xin wang :D Long time no eat xP Waited so long -.- Thank goodness food came fast or else I'll kill the restaurant. I ate four different meat dishes today. :DDDD I love eating meat =P I'll never be a vegetarian xD Or else I'll just die -.- Ate mango pudding!!! :D They gave us a saucer of evaporated milk which tasted very good. I poured it all on my pudding. Including some from my sis's :D I asked my mum whether it was fattening, she said yes. D=!!! Oh my gosh! D: I stopped.

Sleepy -.- But most probably gonna read before I sleep...One more day till school starts!!! :D








argh....


Hope you come leh...

Oh wait, I have NO RIGHT to ask you to do that.

Just Great...






aileen.

Glad to be back in school I guess...
Though these few days, 我的心情不太好。。。
Only feel good when I'm around my friends (:
我知道我并没有资格去想你， but I just can't control it.
I feel that I'm carrying something heavy...
I just wanna know whether you still like me even one teeny tiny bit.
Argh! I shouldn't even be doing that.
But even if he doesn't, he's not to blame.
Only myself.
For being so foolish.
But if I ever know that he still likes me...I'll believe in magic.
I miss you even though I know that I shouldn't be.

Yesterday, we had sculpture class.
In the ex-pottery cca room.
It sure did bring back fun memories from last year.
The memories which are worth both remembering of as a friend and more than that.
I can remember how much fun I had on those few lessons.
But during sculpture class, I was trying to block it.
It hurts to remember that YOU made those memories.
Cause now...I'm scared that we won't have any memories like those.
You behave like everything is fine.
I don't know whether you're just acting or you really do find it fine.
So I just behave like everything's okay too; no crying, no missing of people, no hurt.
I was somewhat successful in blocking the memories.
Until the teacher mentioned about the pottery thing which you had to use your leg to control the speed of it...
That definitely reminded me of fun and nice memories which hurts...






aileen.
The One who has No Right...

Oh No.
Back to Schoooooool!!! D:
Dunno whether its a good thing or not :X
haiyo, don't care about the bad thing xD
Focus on the good! ><
Tonight definitely sleep late.
Then tomorrow cannot wake up :X
Read book last night till 2+
Woke up 11+.

Ate, watched tv, watched boys before flowers! :D
AHHHHHH, THIS SHOW ROCKS :D
The main guy is hot xD
Really :D
He looks better with straight hair though x)
Anyway xD
Its one of the best I ever watched :D

Bored~
Drama still loading.
Talking to ppl x)


I can't wait for school tomorrow (:
Though I'll just avoid... ><
Coward me!!!!










aileen (:

I'm so tired T.T
Came back around 8.04
Too bad I live so far -.- Or else could have stayed for the fireworks with them ):
Had lots of fun today :D
Young Eun and I got there first.
We climbed all the way to the third floor.
Reached a dead end -.-
She told me all about Michael Phelps her Idol taking marijuana.
And also boys before flowers xD
She found a guitar for lil' kids (:
I like the Barbie Dolls, soft toys and baby stuff x)
I used to love barbie alot xP
Now; D:!
Later...
Met Kim and Co :D
Finally xP
went to toys r us again.
walk walk walk...
Arcade :D
yay, me like bumper cars =P
So fun xDD
Next time, I'm definitely learning how to drive a car (:
But I got stuck a few times and my arm got tired -.-
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They went to the roof.
Young Eun and I just stayed there (:
I wouldn't wanna risk falling down ><
Went back to arcade for more bumper car.
Paired with YE and she drove.
I can tell that she'll be an excellent driver next time xD
Bought caramel drink and oreo waffle thing at dairy queen.
It was fattening but who cares? xDDD
I love it :D
Warren can't see.
Left for skating ring.
Damn ex. D:
We went to Ktv (:
this one is cheap :D
YE and I drank water and cheers with Kim's drink.
Kim's drink tasted good (x
Not so gross like beer or wine.
But poor Kim.
Her face was completely red from drinking that T.T
Sing sang sung xD
I suck at it D:
Westlife Rocks~! :D
---------------------------------------------------
Took taxi to Gubei.
So hungry ><
Went to Secret Recipe.
Everyone squeezed into the cushion :X
I ate lassagne~ :D
Burnt my tongue ><
Not the tip of it is red! D:
But it tasted good.
I eat really fast :D

Took train home.
My feet hurt!
I could have reached home earlier.
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Anyway, I had fun with everyone today (:
Though I spent alot of money D:



:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD



aileen (:





















************************************************************
Going out with friends is a good way to get you off my mind.
But only just a tiny bit...

Had lots of fun today ^-^
With Kim :D
We bought lots of earrings (:
Not sure how many pairs :X
Walked around the building buying things xD
Kim was broke lol.
She owes me alot now xD
Kimberly is attracted to pearls x)
We walked pass a shop selling those smt like belly dancing clothing :X
Then Kim's imagination started to unfold T.T
Pole dancing, guys, lap dancing, money<--- :D
:XXXXXXXXX
Talked to Kim till I stepped into the puddle T.T gross D:
Sis called me stupid -.-
Then took the bus to the building near jade garden.
I love this building :D
I bought my poo notebook xP
Kim love the snow globes :D
nvm, we can come back here again (:
Walked to burger king.
Kim had to go home~
My mum sis and I bought burger king x)
Sundae, burger :D

I copied this from Shirley :D
Thanks! :D

Do u like:
JUNK-
[x] chips
[x] fast food
[x] soda
[x] candy
[x] popcorn
[ ] pretzels
[x] peanut butter
[ ] ranch
[x] chicken wings
[x] pizza
[x] burgers
[] hot dogs
[x] grilled cheese

Total:10

VEGETABLES-
[] broccoli
[x] carrots
[] cauliflower
[x] green beans
[x] beans
[] onions
[] tomatoes
[] pickles
[] cucumber
[] zucchini
[] celery
[] peppers
[x] peas
[x] potatoes
[] beets
[] brussel sprouts
[] spinach
[] lima beans
[x] lettuce
[x] corn

total: 17

FRUIT-
[x] oranges
[x] strawberries
[x] apples
[x] bananas
[] pineapple
[x] pears
[x] peaches
[] grapes
[] plums
[] grapefruit
[] clementines
[] tangerines
[] raspberries
[] blueberries
[] limes
[x] lemons
[x] mangos
[x] cherries
[x] watermelon
[] cantalope
[x] honeydew

Total: 27

MEAT-
[x] ham
[x] chicken
[] lamb
[x] pork
[x] steak
[] turkey
[] fish
[] deer
[] bird
[x] salami
[x] pepperoni
[] alligator


Total: 33

DAIRY-
[x] milk
[x] cheese
[x] yogurt
[x] ice cream
[] butter
[x] eggs

Total: 38

DESSERTS- --*
[x] brownies
[x] ice cream
[x] chocolate
[x] sherbert
[x] cake
[x] cup cakes
[x] cookies
[x] toffee
[x] caramel
[x] mousse
[x] whipped cream
[x] chocolate covered strawberries
[x] creme puffs
[ ] jello
[x] chocolate covered pretzels

Total: 52

Wheat-
[x] bread
[x] pasta
[x] cereal
[] bagels
[x] doughnuts
[x] crackers

Total: 57

Overall Total - 57

Now add up the number of x's and multiply by 3 to get the weight that you should be. Put the title as "I should weigh "" LBS".