Wednesday, 18 February 2009Y
Aileen, jia you jia you jia you~!
Today was a complete emo day for me -.- Sorry Kim...T.T I wasn't like Joseph at all :X But really, I'm very scared! >< down =".=">
I spend everyday thinking about him, wanting to tell him but I don't dare to.
I worry whether he likes someone though I know I don't even have the right to.
I listen to sad songs on my ipod thinking about how sad this is.
I stare at my msn screen looking at his online msn name and not talk to him.
I wish I can see him everyday.
I avoid that class.
I don't look at his direction.
I think about the past every night before I go to sleep, it hurts so much that I start to have tears but stop them in time.
I wish that I am stronger.
I just feel annoyed at myself for all these things.
I wish I can read his mind so that I know what to do...
I wish he knows what I'm feeling right now.
I hope he understands when I tell him.
I don't need to be with him, just being friends is okay. But I AM the problem. I'm not really trying...
I want to travel back in time to the day I confessed, the day he gave me my first present from him etc etc....
There's just so many to list. I wanna go back to the past.
what the heck man?! I just wish that everything is solved already. But I know that will not happen if I don't change how things are. I GOT TO!!!
Aileen, 加油！！！
hai...this reminds me of the time when he was the one who was telling me to jia you...in korean...
See, everything I do, it just reminds me fo him.
Oh, '忘不了' is playing on itunes now...T^T
aileen.
ends at Wednesday, February 18, 2009
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