I'm back to posting~
It hasn't been a good week for me.
And Saturday is Valentine's Day.
The day which I'll be the most lonely, probably just staying at home doing homework and then going out with my family.
I don't wanna let that happen.
It Sucks.

Yesterday....
Went to bed quite early.
I didn't have any homework, and I started reading.
Which of course, let my thoughts wonder which then led to self depression.
I couldn't take it so I had to rest my head on the table.
Oh,
I'm sick ):
It doesn't really suck cause it fits me perfectly.
Now I'm both physically and mentally ill.
My throat started becoming sore at lunch and I started sneezing too ><
This morning, I was hoping that I could get fever and just stay at the clinic all day.
Well, I wasn't 'lucky' enough.
hai...my voice has kinda changed.
I couldn't read the words properly during tuition; many words were read wrongly :X
Oh well...
Back to yesterday's early night...
Went to bed at about 9.20, but I didn't fall asleep till like almost 10 I guess...
I kept thinking and thinking and thinking, till I fell asleep.
You know what?
I really miss you.
Saying this is also no use, you wouldn't know.
Even if you knew, will you care?

My insides are hurting all over...
And its not just cause of him.
The fact that
1. I can't tell him that I love him.
2. I'm going back to S'pore for good.
3. My grades and school. ( I always do my best, just that its always not enough for my parents...)
4. What will happen when I get back there.
5. I don't have the courage to even say Hi to him...
6. I'm scared of the future.

All these things... I nearly cried just now. Tears were already there...But I couldn't cry. I don't wanna hear the lecture I'll get. I'm slowly breaking down...