Aileen<3
I Love...
♥ Hershey's Kisses
♥ Candles
♥ Lamps
♥ Stufftoys
♥ Dogs
♥ Family and Friends (:
♥ You, the SuperHero with Powers to make me happy :D
Back in shanghai (: haha so glad :D stay in s'pore also nothing to do :X R&R have exams ): so can't go out T.T Stay at home nothing to do. TV spoil -.- Laptop gets so hot -.- so here I am ^^
Morning was good ^-^ Science was boring. felt tired. didn't get enough sleep. Woke up 8+ on sunday, took plane, didn't sleep onboard, went to bed at 1. Woke up at 5.45am? so noisy -.- Assembly was okay. Nice song :D Chinese- gosh stupid jason -.- picked my name. thank goodness I didn't have to show my voice record. i lied that my sister was screaming in the recording, he still didn't care D: lunch- food was good. nearly died from fumes -.- math- oh great. i should congratulate myself you know. I LOVE Crying -.- screw this... Thanks Kim and Young Eun (:
I feel useless. To him. I don't think I even deserve him...it suddenly hit me today. He always seem to have more fun whenever he is around friends. Don't know whether i'm imagining or what. but, he always does. I think i make him bored. and he is probably thinking what a boring person i am. why am i like that. what happened to me? my feelings for him have not been lessened. great, i'm don't know why, i still get nervous in front of him. my heart still beats super fast when i see him. :X and my mind just blanks out. TT i'm sorry... why do you still even wanna be with me despite me being like that? there are so many girls out there who are much more fun than me. everytime i tell you this, you say that you're the hyper one... and its okay... you don't mind... i feel so happy and sad at the same time..i feel so happy that i am with someone who is so understanding...who is still willing to be with me even though at times i'm so mute. but sad at the same time. that i have to let you put up with it. sometimes, i wonder whether you'll be better off without me... whether you'll be much happier without me.. but in the end, before i even dare to finish thinking about that, i stop immediately. cause i know that i don't ever wanna leave you..i love you. i need you. i want to be with you. i wonder what am i gonna do without you. i think i'll just be a living corpse. just following my daily timetable with no emotions at all. i listen to songs that i listen to at that time you bu with me. that stinging pain comes back. worse than a sting actually. my heart immediately hurts. i can't believe we're back together. so happy.. (: i don't know. i dont even know what i don't know -.- i'm starting to talk nonsense. gosh, i love you. i love you so much. i've never loved anyone before. how do i know that its love? the feeling is just so strong already.. its not like. i remember that day that i realised that my feelings for you were so much. that it turned to love already. i was just overcome with this huge feeling and realization. i was just sitting in my bus staring out the window. then it came to me. 'i love him' i know it. that was on 5 jan. the day before you bu with me..:X so sad.. felt really terrible ><>
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